(and the list goes on), I looked up and realized I'd been missing in the blog world. (Thank you for all your kind, albeit concerned, emails and comments asking where I am and why I'm not writing.) So when things settled, I found it a teeny bit hard to pick up where I'd left off.
"I have planted a longing for perfection in every human heart. This is a good desire, which I alone can fulfill. But most people seek this fulfillment in other people and earthly pleasures or achievements.... Let me fulfill your yearning for perfection."
Ok, speak straight to my heart. And then, feeling elated and assuming it couldn't get any better, I stumbled across sweet dear Mary Catherine's latest post:
"All our lives are not blog-worthy. Thank God because ya’ll would be so bored with mine. Be You [already enough]. Do You [already enough]."
So there it was. I've been on a quest, searching for contentment for an entire year. Finding it, losing it, cherishing it, abusing it. I've been sometimes going so fast, and sometimes taking time to go slow. My life is a constant change of pace and scenery and work and everything else that could possibly change. It won't always be perfect. It won't always be exciting. It won't always look like a perfectly posed photo. But that's ok. My new lesson in contentment is, thank you Mary Catherine, that when life isn't all those things, life is still good—because I hold steadfast to Him. It's this little lesson, this little dawning realization that whispers to me, Hold steadfast to what you love Ainsley, to the things and people He's given you that are good and make you happy. These are blessings. These are little reminders that He wants us to be happy, and though it's not "blog-worthy," it's life, and life, even when it's not anything else, is good.
See ya back here tomorrow.